Friday, November 25, 2005

Adolescence

Her eyes are broken mirrors in the cavern of a tooth
They sparkle as the sun bursts and shiver in the winter
Her lips give birth to mystery and life to every lie
And now I’m validated like a liar’s valid truth

Clouds hang in the distance as the light begins to gray
She holds it in the emptiness and bleaches in the sun
The only children smothered suffocating by her hands
And in her womb I’m strangled like the dying of a day

The insects fill her up inside with parasitic sex
Antennae probing what she knows and what she will regret
With eggs that swell her stomach and the seed within her mouth
The innocence that she aborts and struggles to denounce

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Saturday

The night fell static flat my children eating mother fruitful. You share eyes like winter air the days and wasted years away. The life unopened sighs but never the same like time over nothing in pitiful captivity an engine song unwelcomed by the senses. Inclusion he and them not me and us inside a melody just trapped like rats and other things that speaking of would justify.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Narrative: Autunno e Inverno (2004)

Daigle baffled composition musicality independence almost free. Mozart funeral freemason me inside her without a name faced mistaken nauseous held the ghost. Thriving decay collapsed my ignorance now fallow a wound that never heals. Anticipate and wonder the sun at how I burn in the eyes of Baphomet, disconnected wires telling of truths from which I run. My laughter ubiquitous that filled her lungs with "giornalista." Magickal blasphemies held inside a misery soon to alleviate; life disrupted steps of long division as I reluctant opened my shameful human eyes.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Father's Day

A friend is someone to be used until they are no longer useful.

Nascita Astratto Vuoto

Ascoltare sovversivo parole penetrare forte disonesta. Antagonista bugiarda dietro gentilezza contro mi seduto pietoso; disperata emaciata diluire malattia droga mutazione umano sessualita disgustosa. Ossigeno puntina paradiso sorriso capovolgere infanzia rapporti sessuali e stupefacente e rapporti sessuali e morte; sangue stoffa tempo chiuso comprensione scatola. Inanimato eiaculazione di scarto ingoiare intero, disordine disperato bella vomito sconosciuto cattiva schiacciante.

Senza Tetto

Lacrimale eremita impedire malinconica oscura suicido Messia. Morta poetico melodia ripetizione scarafaggio bestemmia puzzo femminile sconsolata puttana incubo dimensione schizofrenica.

Morso Di Serpente

Edgar: To what derived in time that pleasure forsaken in you my beloved nothing? Morose and bleak your heart had filled with pain that relieved for some time but again bears down upon you; what source be claimed for all your woe?

George: The devil spoke with a forked tongue, and from his mouth came dripping the bile of fairweather. In silence to suffer is noble but unfortunate, and exiled into me this pain which has no home.

Edgar: And what of severity? To advocate the empty has been your charge, and for sometime quite, for left is nothing traced to childhood happiness. To whom this curse be given must surely cursed be. But pitiful to see myself in you; you who gave me life and breath with clever strokes of ink.

George: But pitiful it shall not be, for deserving of my isolation I truly am. Abandon pity; see beyond these frames of worthless reality. Relative to each yet poison just the same, to recapitulate the days of woe that she who gave me life tore in promiscuity from my grasp I see in images flashing the same bleak days that lay ahead; like eyes that mock and pierce my soul.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Melatonin

Reached out feeling weightless and black; my arms like spider reveries ignoble haunted in my world of sleep. Lightless chemical imbalance aggravated me into myself but fear and never nothing nowhere not inside but underneath. Eyes opened to my television life; the people march and sing behind the frame; disillusioned me inside the bilayer; my face unseen I am objective alone in the dark black room with only the light of television that soft blue glare that burns my eyes and robs my heart; characters that come and go without consequence to me the objective viewer staring absently at the screen so eager to give my life away like public hangings on an empty sky afternoon; my life is not real the people have no meaning the birds will never sing the sky will never change the time will never move the waves will never tide the moon will never laugh the people have no meaning the lies will never truth the eyes that never proof the water feels like air the youth will never care the age will never know the children never show of daydreams in the night and never having rights will sit upon some mound not looking to the ground but groping at the sky the children never reach the people have no meaning the ants that move the dirt the sleep that isn't real the lie we never speak the real that isn't there the people have no meaning.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Patricide

Arrogance mistaken by him unwarranted but secretly bitter, when capable sirens exploding outburst from his hollow. Lips coated translation saliva revolting childlike desires immoral failure sinking further into oblivion. Broken will fat baby slobbering "Feed me!"

He disgusts me. Vengeance thickened; pulp forest by apathetic iniquity. My assailant father versus arcane stagnation outlet perforated by colorful laughter. Death I wish upon his breath serene lightless will benighted by hatred no other way. Dream, silence my desires forbidden in fruition. Fantasy, suppress my violence; my dark rebirth manifested.

The sleep of insomnia flowing vividly within my veins throbbing forcefully in anxious blue delirium. Eyes he shut in security false, and struggled me to restrain this murderous evil that filled my soul like a morning fog too oppressive, too dense for comprehension. Twitch the fingers of Edgar who by nature knows the path that indecision before me lay. "Hold me sanity! Purity! Reason!" Oh but strong in me the will for evil, it purity had become. Dead phantom voice of Edgar slithered "murder" into my ear.

Stone lay the inches apart adjacent shelf which took I by hesitation without in the moment's clarity to murder him as Edgar seized me; to murder him whose seed from lust had spawned my darkness, and fell with lust from high above him my hand now painted black by death. Numb and of him suddenly I am now free--the taste of breathing untarnished by my hatred; by my darkness owed to him.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Her New Life

Glass hidden eyes behind green shining mother passenger dead, battery life forlorn smile rearranged. God fingernails opposite engines red acid morning the hours fluidity shameless unbelievable without me. Sunburn spit mouthing "why does this matter?" Know nothing of the sort pornography imitation. Such a fruitless ovum cancer-eaten written black with ink, and face now a trip illness technicolor sky blurred static by the iris. School system's public demons growing out from within our two faces now hidden in the opprobrious dirt. What have we become?

Friday, July 29, 2005

Winston-Salem

My eyes trembled in the light, and surveying the field of weeds before me, I let slip my mental focus. I burned through manufactured glass windows with lust under the heat of afternoon and held my breath in ovarian thirst. The sky was as deep and blue as her eyes are exploded and green. I saw her face painted in cold reptilian frames of broken sunburst-crystalline as her warm sexuality crept slowly with penetrating fingernails along my already collapsed and mildewed veins. She felt raped behind my black eyelids; I know now that love is dead. The fetus will spread her legs in a dull grey melody to imagine shape within the hearts of insect colonies already chewing voraciously at the walls of another vaginal hive; deep, collected pools of seminal regret. Forgotten Robyn in this tenth-grade daydream--in such a bitter nightmare.

Disquisition: Love

It deconstruct and define both to struggles that society a by undermined and created once at all irrationality meaningless and arbitrary an is love. Altruism paradoxical and motives hidden but little symbolize to misapplication of centuries through individual the of mind the within skillfully crafted been has it. Deceit and dishonesty outright of practice conscious, active the within found intrinsically are persuasions effective most and greatest its. Results satisfactory produce will and can love, emotions and thoughts human of manipulation the for used tool necessary a as intelligence apt an by owned if. Disillusionment and regret with over-painted expectations empty with cluttered left otherwise lives into invitation by welcome ourselves we that thief a is love. Truth all found is treachery in for; control-self of sense fraudulent and dignity fickle their of them rob to sway this use to and, oppression its by unaffected if rational left creatures of minds the over sway considerable its master to but, itself love gain to be not should goal plausible and intelligent only the wherein dominance for struggle a is it.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Contrition

You are nothing more than what I feel between your legs. So loveless in my distaste for femininity, I refuse with spiteful eyes those who spread themselves before me. Am I not the first to devour worth wherein you may have kept clean your skin now stained with human filth? To what great lengths I will go to force upon you this knowledge of yourself--am I not your only friend?

Allow me to elaborate upon what little truth--if such a thing exists--you may discern: You are not beautiful, for never have I beheld such a filthy and loathsome creature more worthy of contempt--more earning of disgust; I do not love you; for in consideration of the sewage to which your very soul owes its form and composition, why must I have ever been expected to? In warring factions our genders speak.

And what then of us, and of myself? Why, as you may justifiably inquire, claim fellowship among such base and despicable animals? And so it goes...we are but one, not two; we are the same, never at odds. I see in you that which I myself have always been: vile, corrupted, fallen, malignant--a festering stagnation of all things pure and virtuous; a human being.

Monday, July 18, 2005

Mike Tyson

Nothing left in here for me to feel. Noises wash terrible fluid catastrophe. She smiles down into my bloodstream cathode with urinal teeth; every love about me in hell. Torment leaves me not. Drool collected product of my apathy--can't even swallow. "Get to the point," it urges me on. Everything in upward blisters. Worm shivers in the silken temperature throbbing in the bowels. Anal sex into her distance nightmare appendage. Inside the animal rabid convex. Everything is ruined, dressed in ruination shit.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Nostalgia

Happy birthday, Paul. I've missed you.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Sarah

Her deep blue eyes glared vacantly into mine with that same blank expression still showing on her haunted face. In boundless masculinity I demanded that she put my cock into her mouth. Her eyes rolled upward as she gathered spit...

The moon grew smothered by October clouds, and from her mouth fell the fruit of sodomy; days wasted on blood and sex. She was a breathing egg, deformed and full with cancer. The sperm swam mindlessly throughout the alleys of Canal street, while Christ hung mockingly on a telephone pole under the swollen red sky--and the wind washed over the shit and piss of animals still clinging in lifeless terror to their drugs. I told her I loved her and put my hands to her throat...

Monday, June 20, 2005

Aqueous Nineveh

You have done a good thing for a bad man. She is an angel with come in her mouth. I love you, father. What lustful sores must I endure in tune with radio frequencies too audible for logical digestion? I have learned to multiply severity clocks that perforate the insect sentences, but feast so steadily upon her cysts that my seed is sewn as tapeworm maledictions; open walls coagulate when questioned. The ovarian rupture haphazardly ejaculated swarms of wayward eggs into my teeth. With bile producing stomach emphasis I stagger slowly into throat-consuming orgasm, swallowing her children in bright green ruination much akin to mildew.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

New Year's Eve

My self
Center fickle
Vagrant narcissistic
Expendable relationship
Nothing

The day
In dispersion
Fruitless concentration
Inamorata revulsion
Silence

Arcane Verity

Wanton
Patulous mouth
Seminal ingestion
Irrevocably polluted
Cheap whore

Friday, June 03, 2005

Regret

Mother's backseat leather cold sky permeating our embrace. Wherein love eyes her on me never fixed; so full her mind with clamor lucid had I that been replaced. But stupid in idolatry ignored I of fears to proven fruitful be; known what of to come with her will for others bending, would never have I touched her. Laughter they scream when my way looking proclaim me the fool that loved a whore.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Lust

What then of me and feelings my? To do for them what not for me in loveless promiscuity. Exhausted you in past contempt with love forgot and meaning spent; eager in me desire pure what shouldn't you have done before. Taste them in you and me in they, by shameful lust has fallen faith. Regretful heart my love in waste for carnal truth you dogged chased; spread thin by them in numbers high. What then of me and feelings my?

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Gorge (Robin-Bruise)

Undeserving eyes glared he upon her. In receptive comforting gingerly a smile across her lips she outstretched. Proximity enclosed, them between the act and indecision. Reflected she in circumstances fleeting, overtaken by her newfound mistake; she thoughtless in naivete indulges.

Space in them between across he reaches, his hand softly upon her own places he in initiation. Flushed red in her desire for him, promise her sacrificed by transience wanton she forever faithless succumbs to fallen seduction. Star-crossed and bloodless they loveless irrevocably are.

Sit me in awe of solitude while they by fluttered whim embrace their worthless proof. Foolish cuckold by daydream beware in futility my love admitted; by fraud she benevolent dissuaded me from truth.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

The Revenant

A ghost enraptured in the silhouette wind crawling softly along my aging skin; fearful only in the whirling amidst time outgrown in laughter mirthful. Setting sun to know the splendor of the vanished heat; heart bursting wonderment eyes downward to the sky. Some creature flickered within its life at dusk, in youthful faces disappear; such love within cannot compare.

Monday, April 25, 2005

Opprobrious Enlightenment

Regressive sexuality inverted limitation; pheromone Eve antagonistic perforated weakness. Condemnation recondite illegitimate virtue aberrated fallen hereafter tempted inescapably. Felicitous annulment deliquency benighted harmony divine intemperance severity painless embittered imprecating convolution obscurity. Hedonistic peerless ripening gestation pragmatic in eyes unfit to behold.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Twelve

Anathematized vacancy anguish dejection forlorn suicidal despond malignant frailty widespread sovereign destitute woebegone deplorable. Wretched continuity detriment betrayal cursed quarantine beloved bastard distress burden albatross unbearable death somatic bereavement ruination irreparable worsening humiliation hopeless. Ill-fated useless cycle vain incurable futile menacing demoralized unmitigable disconsolate detritus squalid melancholy oppressive funereal somber isolation bleak morose insanity languished downcast horrid affliction.

Eleven

Attention span newfound masculine dissolution clarion hatred coagulation. Spaces inner maturation Edgar outward breathing blasphemy incoherence manipulation sentiment chaotic. Libidinous sewage permeation ordure radiation sunburst execrable whore spreading its legs in silence. Lascivious wanton saturation vile excessive grime retention soiled mouth whereby with seminal excrement. Eleven honesty ended outspoken enmity loathsome.

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Manic Spiritual

Siren lying frivolous heart malpractice affected inconsiderate spiteful reflection blinding meaningless. Shade exempla dignified justice perverted speaking foreign hideous. Truth uncovered desperation trust imposter haunting stoic membrane commencement. Marriage laughter contorted mirthful deceit insomnia disgusted conversation bereft. Illusion aperture adjusted accordingly; light deluge excessive insolent. Confronted adulteration inevitable.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

An Unanswered Correspondence

Does Beatrice, that angel, dare to love you now? Does love transcend the heavenly faith you so doggedly upheld in her eternal name? The light you once described as blinding, have you acquired the sight to fix your eyes upon it? What life, enraptured, must certainly lie within! For you, Dante, I have so many questions.

I am older now; with a Beatrice of my own. I would love nothing more than to take her as my wife. Only time will tell.

Monday, April 04, 2005

The Liberated Woman

Mildewed cyst malignant spiteful abortion infected putrefied seminal ingestion. Fleeting intercourse empowerment bathing vomitus children ovarian cecity filth misinformation sexual. Inferior bleeding faceless whore contemptuous mouthing thoughtless insecurity. The smell of shit wafting miserably from your menstruating breath.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Carnal Arabesque

Shameful exposure feathered song reluctant sky-blue tears chirping fear anxiety. Metallic fingered releasing safety helpless eternal breathing deepened complication adjustment. Throughout repetitious discovery internal sensation debilitated normality. Feminine desire foreign accompaniment wonderfully astonished restricted surreal capacity without love. Exploded rhythmic humiliation questioned worth never answered.

Callow Indifference

Thrown immature clandestine pattern guiding pane sleep ignorance peacefully shattered heightened anger eating defeated inevitable. Reaching vanity bare smiling laughable self-interested face saving inquisitive fatigue. Will we run forever? Begging healthy concrete tension vanished friendship youthful adrenaline. Moonlight over blanketed magical screaming tomorrow vandalism.

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Isogonic Carp

Christian deicide esoteric bloodletting anorexic martyr. Dogged fantasy illuminating monolithic portrait oblong crucifixion. Virgin window foliage incising sunlight punctilious frankincense cannibalism. Infected abstract fever-goat livid carnal mutilation nostril. Exploded iris pupil swollen dialect initiation funeral.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Salacious Pallor

Oceanic sky blooming new life apparition bewilderment. Touched sensitive barely imposing nevertheless beloved ammunition. Inquisitive arsenal comfort abasement temple heredity. Altruistic vicissitude invective. Regurgitation hermetic.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Cyst Gluttony

Flesh gaping ethnic sentimental chagrin malevolent. Enticement depth murderous faithful; desired engine humanity. Nauseous prophecy failing Christ seminal amphetamine ooze. Seed insertion poisoned dejected irrevocable wretched guerilla. Roaming fair-weather insignia lustful.

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Reticent Thermoplasticity

Persuaded heart meiosis insufficient reservoir lascivious disquiet agitation. Stoic fatal magnanimous denunciation venom bestial. Heathenish idolatry rudiment nucleus impairment.

Monday, February 21, 2005

Medicinal Depletion

Out motive affection absent mystery. Exile banish face comprehension desire. Forgotten spring dampened park bench in heated jungle utopia. Intercourse.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

Excursive Legato

Shielding light within radiates feather float wind travel currency film adapted excursionist funeral song. Dance with her.

Amanda

Blonde twirling lips blue crystalline global pouting. Constructive careless vehicle bohemian makeshift stranger opinion float beautiful traveling husband flown missing incest whatever. Shifting disintegration emptiness.

Airport Phantasm

Scent waves nostril dilated feminine. Founded silhouette daydream malnourished reality oxygen. Silken arabesque brightly trench livid bloodstream capillary pupil intellect.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Chemical Hemorrhage Sympathy

Lexicon befuddled assent lapse heliotrope paragon benighted surreal commonplace perpetual.

Friday, February 11, 2005

Haunted Quadratic

Sunrise Saturday blue toxin avenue maternal. Malignant heretic plastic food ingested bile honeydew summer. Breathing folded skin lesion simple religion eyes condescending shameful garage sale. Poverty busted target mood infamous smiling down teething hepatitis wherein. Children.

Friday, February 04, 2005

Pitch Graceful Automatic

Instrument rounded shape eyes hazel television love serene. In hollow dress paint contact humiliation demonic.

Friday, January 28, 2005

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Homesick

I miss my dad and I wish I could still be at home spending time with him.

Friday, January 07, 2005

Famine

Erudite ignition Mephistopheles dissipated vessel ottava rima courtesan litigation buffoon assortment.

Loeb Whore

Love distance replica sacred harmony balance rotting citrus lock. Forgiveness kinetic bone often healing poetic nuance generation contaminated womb revolted animals. Days limitation her spirit moving astral warmth.