Monday, March 27, 2006

Tardive Dyskinesia

A world unopened canvas not yet painted by his eyes breathing dawn. Stumbled up and out of sleep around him looking first for sources noise pollution undesired hunger he ignored and motion perpetual forced him on towards the light. Water stream below his feet empty out into the sun rays penetrating iris growing in daytime consciousness. Drainage pipe surrounded his body amazing echoed pounding dripping in his ears. Touching rust entrapment he noticed stained had fingers skin becoming oxidation society industrial universality spirit third-world. Oxygen thoughts exploded red blood immunity system now plague his inattention…the smell of pussy distant gathered nostrils up infection bleeding menstruation acid colorful pink residue. Faith in nature overcome by mankind malevolence greed infection mouth cankered blistering his will. Out into the sun torso hanging over metal opening stench the sewage thick and liquid black; body anchored plunging upward into thoughts of beautiful day.

Left envisioned sights of fencing wire road engines singing social monotony; boring society seemed malaise not why. Right envisioned breathless forestry open untamed life mantra by design; pure air untarnished thickened black by humanity. Decision right and therefore fell from rust industrial into nature’s nothing—winter pond so cold upon his skin now free and liberated from its rust affliction. Perfected man stood half submerged frostbitten throbbing anxiously indecision. Decision right. A world unopened. He had been asleep. A shrill invention voice littlehood collapsed the smell distant fertility barren thundering echoed out into the forest fell silent explosions of severity subsequent action now upon the bank and into dirt pine thickness inhaled by him who sought the origin.

Stream intention bank dirt encroachment calling out with winter limbs the cold of moisture crystallizing pore sensations without direction. Upon the bank he stood motionless breathing cold air suffocating his lung capacity for renewal. Voice distant and with longing animosity from beneath a bludgeoned frame humanity out of body she the bleeding stench; wretched filling molecules filling air that filled his lungs. Eyes he cast upon the hill, viewing her in nude discomfort, legs apart and spilling urine, bladder crushed by weight of trunk, winter barren tree had broken, damning her into the dirt.

The body child unconscious apparent breathing not alive trauma unbecoming of her age beautiful but now broken by her wandering he wondering her and how she came not now to be but parental instructions disavowed insolent angelic girl now even at his feet. Where were they? Thought he the gift now caring for to carry out his will attempted first to speak.

“Wake and see the time before you. Tomorrow promised you its sun, life has given you its light, and eyes are closed by falling nature? Child you are inherent holy. Pure is will and God is mirthful.”

Unresponsive breathing coma. Will instructed man unfit for nature’s will not bending, could not he free her from the weight. But breathing out and breathing in and breathing stilled his beating heart. Death a future unavoidable livid girl black hair pulled contour skull design adorable. Intention defeated man stood ashamed failure social installations had cared to teach him useless. Road surreal and taken aback by engines singing waves that roll and speed increasing similar shells on beach his childhood thinking where it went away now sandy dusty molded green by mildew.

Abandoned her in panic thinking pathworkl animalistic tendency urging food conception birth instilled in blood fabric nature green inside him throbbing red surrounded hemoglobin Christ insect malaria diseased anyone not wanting lukewarm spit flies festering stench pussy bleeding smell haunting indiscriminate substance pheromone malignant cancer eaten black eyelid pitiful. Structural deficiencies a well worn path unkempt ability stone tripping his construction framework falling to its gravity. Structural desired sustenance bleaching skull her breathing out and breathing in and breathing stilled his beating heart and rising up to know his nature: pond reflection sky blue inclusive face; see himself in nature.

Both in and out of breathing time beheld by him the body eagle spread bleeding now again his feet even and to her had returned. Unconscious living breathing all the same. Creature up from within his heart blackened breathing smog by arteries fattened thick with viscous choke. Animal creature tendency by society feared and cast aside maintaining governmental structures everything in line everything in line promised disillusioned animal inside now tearing at his chest.

The body mangled barren trunk oppressive weight kept her unconscious. He had been sleeping. Clue lifted eyes a trail ant insect not animal but nature compelled and filling up his tongue. Voracious chewing flesh leg swarming upward bites the insects broken colony by design. Queen listless in her pregnancy. Hardened shell of mission known and armor worn soldiers mandible without secretion chewing lips virgin wasting vaginal membrane. See himself in nature. A world unopened.

Rushing back to path obtrusion stone grey misshapen oblong fitting worthless in his hand still undecided of abusive wonder. Technique interested holding out fingers to the floor of forest green and winter dead. Stone obtrusion fingering into palm held man the stone of God that God held man the industry held blank held blackness interspersed becoming…hands uncommon motive bleeding she behind him feet away uneven looking down below alive eaten by her insects. Skin folding under winter apparition ghost revenant where else but inside enter initiation; ritual dependency morality where off to gone? Humanity where off to gone?

Orgasm awakened: b l o o d i n t r u s i o n r a p e d u n c o n s c i o u s. Rust affliction water cleansing colorful society misinformation palpable air transforming somehow rearranging affiliation particles defecting into natural humanity; animal untarnished perfected origin revisited. Not him or her but it now gender inappropriate transformation completed upon its violence. Stone obtrusion wrapping silence in its firmament.

Back body now it rushing down below the hill the bank ravine the body lay still motionless now dead inanimate matter not living human tissue mouth opened in remission. Down leaning into perfect sight the vision taken by digestion eyes it noticed dark her infant teeth fallen outside echoed its brutality. Sickening colonized the insect malnutrition status unaffected prevention mental insurgency conspired to expel them. Tentacle fingers out wandering her flesh for nuisance colony swarming cavity legs between her middle warm and wet inside. Sensations burning as by desire urged his tentacles into middle colony swarm his apparatus insignia defending their new home revision. Its flesh uprising bleeding stench lay stagnant inconsiderate nature machinery urging generation cavity opened relaxation inviting.

Limbs pulled to make her open. Trickled covered forest floor. Urine bleeding pink residue upon her lips mixture undeciphered. Nature industrial deconstruction man excluded process intervention contaminated origin perfected appendage totalitarian arousal nude discomfort becoming shameless will insertion into her by force the arid flesh unwelcomed by the cavity. Violation rape a living creature beside itself in disbelief and she the bleeding was the dying now a figment of existence became its will in organism tissue sample science blackness in her eyelids breathing out her soul. See nature in itself.

Upper torso chambered heart it rested winter barren tree upon the trunk that damning her into the dirt remembered vague what will it had ingested. Certain face without comprehension for winter barren fogging vision thick tangible it closing eyes instead to see the shaman face solidified headdress resentment truth and speaking mantra.

“Nature man meandered animal nature man meandered industry nature man meandered animal nature man meandered industry nature man meandered animal nature man meandered industry nature…”

Chasing ecstasy relief fungus renounced rust affliction replaced pink residue coating now fleshing pigment ejaculation internal sponge blistered virgin walls coating dog sperm radiation yellow sickness turning over thickened black mildew covet abstinence within her. Filling up inside the warmth of orgasm throbbing bile fruit seedless in conception. Gentle exit stirring thorax resentment muscle relaxation stain shrubbery its territory not held within her oozing out.

Body faltered dead its teeth heavy her leg eyes cast upon the decomposers. Skin broken ripped bacteria festered wound mouthing infection tasting her sickness under torn fabric misanthropic leeching death. Accomplishment bewildered by its nature now in realization bacteria cultured furnace. Meaning sense of what was transpired happened in repetition through inside time outside consciousness it wondered of her soul society insisting life sanctity. Meaning ceases facing primal desire survival food sexual interpolation fluid ruined by perversion conflict within its aura split by humane recollection.

Pondering bacteria distressed it wondered animal basic irreducible discrimination revealed cycle creation feeding nature as its source. Decision right left essentially the same it understood by mushroom deconstruction natural flow indicating origin; by him who sought the origin now it that sought the essence. Feed earth consciousness empty indiscriminate purpose feeding earth its nature reinvesting self into itself creation renewal process by detriment considerate pointless morality outcast purpose feeding earth.

It whatever meant decomposition essential earth had reborn in eyes that tentacles becoming slit skin iris colorful emptiness lacking pieces shambles unresponsive failure medical. Body weight upward into compact flesh. Loose jagged shambles her the body mutilated raped in her unconsciousness intrusion but isn’t thinking it by failure virtue moral condemnations invalid social maladies missing flown incest whatever fingering heart black children taste. Indecision revolving stopping minus halfway nature in himself feeling raped by nature.

Teeth bare gnashing animal appetite conservation. Act motivation unknown but evenly under mothering nurtured elephant discomfort cracked lithium sidewalk frozen shingles blue-green vision sores upon body flesh now destitute shell bantering. Nature raped or raping nature? Shaman historical strobe sequential linear under standing upright fickle missionary.

Fission inquisition stone by pressure it the origin demanding of its subject tearing perforation skin vision sores increasing exponential bleeding thick and slow sap winter barren same but never could living nature bleeding sap same whispering. Mouth covering vacuum wounded apostrophe condition faithful reinvention use originally symbiotic parasite love song becoming crystallization eternity foundation crumbled taste infected nature taste infection meat poisoning its senses.

Tentacle green livid squirming corpse topography mischief insect isolated colonized within her wounds out growing blood thickened into ants. Wondered nevermore sanity it misplacing loyalty Nietzsche laughing “overman.” Nothing man ever willful ejaculation confined base nature irreducible feeding nature in its end primary animals evolution unbecoming anything. Evolution occurrence not under but not over it him whatever will it animal becoming human all the same heittieh reflection palindrome mistaken flawed Heittieh realizing synthesis unholy meandered industry feeding nature.

Agenda calculated responsive Heittieh now perfected reflection inward of itself. Nature not becoming but inducing oppression now Heittieh realizing out his will. Body rotting dying earth into replenished source animal satisfied now feeding earth. Generation cold consciousness without mutilation blasphemous natural fruit murderous screaming “F A C S I M I L E.”

Dissevered limb construction God reversible will man-made figment of existence now revealed Heittieh understanding clarity revision literal. Heittieh had been sleeping. A world unopened. Decision right sickness filling up inside inhuman meat bacteria. Fell unconscious out drifted Heittieh creature arming nature with its teeth regeneration seed composition exact existence outside temporal limits raping humanity will industrial rust afflictions. Reborn animal halfway incursive malignancy.

Bloom number systems mathematical persuasion put to logic unimportant what will had been ingested. Nevermind journey inward repeating. Habitual desire cavity disorientation structural disconnected stripped bare teeth gnashing animal frenzy repetition systematic earth. Seed identical existence intuition primal sickness induced. Clone breathing knowledge meat sickness inside blood cathode apparatus mildewed green collapse within Heittieh. Concave resurrection. Lost consciousness subversion fell flesh to animal insect fungus decomposing nature into nature into nature raping pillage human folly elevation mockery natural unconsciousness remaining sleep. Cruel machinery chemical desired nothing mindless willful reasoned logical heavens diagram charted fell Heittieh to its forest floor and winter dead. A world unopened.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Teteo Inan

Path obtrusive shamanism green did clamor foreground apparitions. Black follicle mutation mapping newfound by blistered serpent memory fruition. Dirt considered poisonous tentacle root hive throbbing blackened upward from detachment. Sweltered immunity broken angel teeth red viscous thickened slouching out exploited cavity. Lush canopy the animal bathing sunlight forest perforation now bleeding through its eyelids:

Ginger steps of apprehension
Baited breathing misty vapors
Rising from beyond the stitching
Cankered mouth of wounded earth